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I gave my life to Jesus Christ when I was very young, too young to know what sins I had done. I have sinned out of curiosity. Am I still saved?
Thank you for contacting us with your sincere question. I am so glad that you are ready to reconsider your lifestyle and, I hope, renew your commitment to Jesus Christ as your Saviour and Lord.
My son also gave his life to Jesus Christ at a very young age: he was just three! He knew, I suppose, that he was sometimes naughty, but had a pretty limited understanding of sin! I personally was fifteen when Jesus Christ came into my life; I knew that I was a sinner, but to be honest, I was not particularly aware of actual sins that I was committing. I did start telling the truth and doing my homework - quite a lifestyle change, for me! It was quite a while before I was acquainted with the real extend of my selfishness. Yet Jesus was my Saviour - and my son says that, though he was so young, he meant what he prayed that day and, despite trials, has never changed his mind.
Of course, anyone who is converted very young has little or no real experience of life. Like anyone else, he or she wants to choose their own beliefs and lifestyle and to separate from their parents and their beliefs. This is called individuation and everyone has to achieve it in order to become an adult. You, like everyone else, wanted to explore life for yourself. Also, like everybody else, you have made mistakes. Our fundamental problem with sin is not the particular sins we commit but our selfishness and failure to love God, others and also ourselves rightly.
Jesus was clear about this in His teaching.
"You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbour as yourself. On these two commandments depend all the Law and the Prophets." (Matthew 22:37-40)
What has happened to you is that, in your desire to explore what life has to offer, you have exposed your own failure to love and your lack of ability to succeed without God's guidance. This is an extremely painful lesson! Most of us have been through it in one way or another. It crushes our pride and makes us face our failure. Sometimes, we also get a good look at the failures of others, including other Christians. But Jesus said,
"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted." (Matthew 5:3-4)
When we face our inner poverty, we become 'poor in spirit'. When we are depressed because of our mistakes and failures, we are 'those who mourn.' When we come to that place, says Jesus, we are ready to be blessed! So your depression and sense of failure are not a curse but a blessing. You are ready to be blessed!
Here is another piece of good news for you: Jesus has been at work in your life all along. You may not have been listening to Him or co-operating with Him, but He promised:
"I will never leave you nor forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5)
We close our hearts to Him and wander from Him, but He is only ever a prayer away. It is our hearts that are closed, not His. If we have done this, we are often afraid to turn back to Him, because of shame and fear.
But the words of Jesus given above are followed in the book of Hebrews by,
So we can confidently say, "The Lord is my helper; I will not fear" (Hebrews 13:6)
"Those whom I love, I reprove and discipline, so be zealous and repent. Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me. The one who conquers, I will grant him to sit with me on my throne, as I also conquered and sat down with my Father on his throne." (Revelation 3:19-21)
Tell Him all your failures and resentments and ask His forgiveness. Ask Him to be both Saviour and Lord in your life again and surrender to Him. Then, on the basis of His promise, believe that when you opened the door of your life to Him, He entered and will stay with you and make you a conqueror.
I do hope my answer helps you find peace with God through Jesus Christ our Lord. If you want to know more about what Jesus has done for you please watch the video on the main part of our site: www.lookingforGod.com
You know what the spiritual disciplines are: pray, let God speak to you from the Bible, worship Him alone and with others, allow yourself to be taught by His servants. Then you will become strong and stable as a Christian.
In closing, I want to encourage you to get more involved with your local church. It would be good to speak to a Christian leader or another trusted church individual about your question. I know they would be delighted to answer you, pray for you and support you as you continue your spiritual journey: www.lookingforgod.com/churchfinder
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